Polojko's Blog! – Page 229 – "The only person you can't learn from is yourself"

Important question

Who am I? Why am I who I am, Is it this consciousness, body, soul, etc? Question par excellence, that was disturbing me since my early adolescence. Without answers, for now.

When I was kid, I enjoyed reading old newspapers: in our house, there was always a bunch of those, so I’d take several piles of them, hide somewhere in the corner, and read. I remember that my biggest fascination from those days was when reading ads: how something can be new when the newspaper’s date is from last year?! I was 5 or 6 at that time.

Bad company

Clarification for my social anxiety could be found in the fact that I’ve spent most of my life in the company of people that I didn’t want to be with.

Mid-life

On my 30th birthday, I had a strong feeling that I’d reached a mid-point in my life (or was it a third? Can’t remember clearly). I’ve changed country (came to the US), or – better yet – civilization, the youth was behind me, a really boring and tedious part of my life had just begun. I’m not sure whether that was the consequence of my coming to the US, or it would happen anyhow.

Unbelievable!

The US is the most boring country in the World: all Americans talk about is business, and the word that one hears most often is: SALE!!. I was unintentionally eavesdropping on a conversation between two philosophy students: they were talking about how to make money in philosophy! Unbelievable!

Artist

When God was creating the World, he didn’t have a clear idea of what he wanted to do. Something like art, I’d say.

Totalitarian Country

The US is the most totalitarian country in the World!! Clarification: Population control is more visible than elsewhere. Also, the population’s unawareness of this control and manipulation by the ruling classes is stupendous.

Composite nations

So-called “composite nations” e.g. Nations where the majority of the population consists of immigrants (US, Australia, New Zealand, Canada), either aren’t nations at all, or are nations “par excellence”. Clarification: residents of these countries don’t belong to the same ethnic groups, races, religions, etc., but, when the Chinese says that he/she is an American, it sounds more convincing than when, for example, a Bosnian says that he/she is German.

Rubbish

Everything is rubbish in America, a friend advised me, trying to dissuade me from my intention to emigrate there. As he had never been to America, I did not take him very seriously, then: now I take him more seriously, but it is too late.

Cheap things

In the US there is something for everybody (and every pocketbook). But, the difference between cheap and expensive things is not only quantitative, but qualitative, as well, since cheap things – as a rule – don’t work!