In order to write, H. De Balzac locked himself up in his study for months at a time, till he finished whatever he wanted to write. There’s no other way.
J.S. Bach wanted, as a kid, to become a military officer, A. Einstein a pilot, M. Lermontov – A. Pushkin, etc., and none of them become what they wanted. How disappointing their lives must have been!
Americans, as a nation, lack any transparency. Most people here are so set in their ways, it’s horrifying. Without flexibility and self-reflection there’s no true individuality.
From the outside, the US looks as colorful, seductive, fun, and sexy. From inside – gray, boring, asexual. You’d have to live in it in order to know this.